Twilight

Panic Bodies

"Panic Bodies is a 70-minute, six-part exploration of the ways we experience the body's betrayals: disease, decline and death. The film is a panorama of emotionally charged recollections of strange relatives and estranged siblings, staged recreations of fast-fading pasts and personal mythologies, and reflections on the anxious states created by the body's fragile claims on time and space. It's about being a stranger in your own skin. Panic Bodies perfects the phantom quality of any good work about mourning, but it is not reducible to that. It is also enlivened by the intimacy that comes from having made a spectacle of personal secrets." (Kathleen Pirrie Adams, Xtra)

Committed

Stylized, black and white biography of Frances Farmer by author Lynne Tillman and Sheila McLauglin.

The Cat Lady

“A portrait of Carla Liss, evoking the atmosphere of the old horror films we both loved.”

Ophelia

A portrait inspired by reading about John Millais' painting Ophelia.

Oblivion

“Approximately thirty images comprise Oblivion. Most obsessively repeat themselves. Although the images appear to be solarized, the film was actually contact-printed, combining high contrast black and white negative with a colour positive of the same image. The high contrast accounts for the tendency of shots to flood. Images in the film swell and contrast, often disappearing into pure colour… Oblivion employs extremely rapid cutting. Some of the images last as briefly as two frames. The fact that we see so few frames, that a shot is representationally ambiguous, or shown upside down and sideways, often causes the viewer to project his/her own fantasies… When Jean Genet was asked to what end he was directing his life he responded, “To oblivion.” (J.J. Murphy, “Reaching for Oblivion”) (mikehoolboom.com)

Early Monthly Segments

Filmed when Beavers was 18–19, this self-portrait depicts him and Gregory J. Markopoulos in their Swiss apartment. A diary of domestic life, it transforms everyday objects and intimate details into a charged meditation on love, memory, and desire.

Jabbok

The story of Jacob wrestling the angel at the stream called Jabbok.

Storm Warning

Third part of a trilogy.

Razor Head

One man shaves another in this highly charged erotic performance.

The Heavens

"The Heavens"–Symmetrical chaos envelops a lone, topless man, whose symmetrical abstractions conjure up a psychadelic version of DaVinci's Vitruvian Man.

Spider Jan.16.91

Short experimental film made in 1994.

Minor Revisions

"I intended to make a film about food and spiritual nourishment, but this was punctuated by two visits from a friend (upon entering the us army and the birth of his daughter)..."

The Mirror Garden

A romantic and lyric study of a young friend and readings he encouraged, especially Mallarmé.

Aquarium

Short experimental film made in 1994.

Epilog/Siam

Two portraits paired, one warm, one cold.

abda/Rebirth

With abda I was processing black and white film myself in buckets . . . I wanted to destroy my own image." – T.C. (An interview in Afterimage, Summer 1981.)