Juan Cálix

What you Deserve follows a suicidal gay ex-mormon and the memory of his 15 year old self, as they are forced to break apart the long held belief that they deserved to be violently sexually assaulted on the night before their sixteenth birthday. Based on real events from the writer's life and shot in his hometown's of York and Lancaster, Pennsylvania, What You Deserve is an unflinching look at how sexual trauma echoes through time pinning us to our past until we're willing to face it.

A man relapses on crystal meth behind his husband's back and discovers the grim cost of throwing away his sobriety. Part I of a series exploring the filmmaker's experiences with active addiction while in a committed relationship.